I’ve become aware of doubting and questioning lately and I know that I have been over analyzing the plans God has shown me in prayer.
Last night, I asked God to help me strengthen my faith and help me understand that I just have to be patient.
For forty minutes I spoke to my Father, told him everything that was on my mind and in my heart, knowing that he already knew; that he will always listen.
I asked him to help me understand what it was he had wanted me to do and he had given me an image of myself sitting beside someone, and just listening to them tell their story. I was given this image over and over and each time it was a different person. After a few minutes of this I realized that all these people were the same in some way; some held one bag of possessions; and others sat in the cold in a doorframe, convinced this was the home they will always know; but most of all, they all told me they were alone.
I was confused and I started asking questions like, ‘who are these people?’ and ‘what does this mean?’ or ‘how will I know what to do?’ and there it was, me doubting again, not placing all of my trust in God; questioning the plans he had shown me.
God placed these people in my heart last night and I wish I could say that I am clear now as to what he wants me to do with this but the truth is, I’m not. There is one thing I do know however, and that is I have had the joy of experiencing Gods love, why shouldn’t they?
I also talked about the way Christmas was going to be like, that I was in Gods hands and family.
I asked him to help me understand what it was he had wanted me to do and he had given me an image of myself sitting beside someone, and just listening to them tell their story. I was given this image over and over and each time it was a different person. After a few minutes of this I realized that all these people were the same in some way; some held one bag of possessions; and others sat in the cold in a doorframe, convinced this was the home they will always know; but most of all, they all told me they were alone.
I was confused and I started asking questions like, ‘who are these people?’ and ‘what does this mean?’ or ‘how will I know what to do?’ and there it was, me doubting again, not placing all of my trust in God; questioning the plans he had shown me.
God placed these people in my heart last night and I wish I could say that I am clear now as to what he wants me to do with this but the truth is, I’m not. There is one thing I do know however, and that is I have had the joy of experiencing Gods love, why shouldn’t they?
I also talked about the way Christmas was going to be like, that I was in Gods hands and family.
Family was something I guess I took advantage of, that I knew no matter what, they were there. Everyday you come home either from school, work, outings, or just come out of your bedroom from playing video games all day…but as you can see, we probably all take advantage sometimes of all these little moments that we rely on our family to just be there, in which we should.
I have nowhere really to spend Christmas, so the one thing that came to mind was that I should just thank God for all the opportunities and all the guideance he has given me throughout these past few months. Sure, Christmas is going to be hard, and God has prepared my heart for it, and I know that this is only going to strengthen my relationship with him and Christ.
Joshua 1:9 "I command you-be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the LORD your God is with you wherever you go."
Look at your families, don't let times come when getting away is all you can think of; or let simple things get between you. They are gifts. Hold them as Christ holds me.
I don't know what is going to happen, and I know I'm not supposed to.
I just trust that he will never steer me wrong and I have now left all of this in his hands.
"God is reliable and will NEVER disappoint."
Gabby <3
"God is reliable and will NEVER disappoint."
Gabby <3
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