Unstoppable

I don't even know how to start this entry....the way God has worked in me throughout this week, well, I can't even digest it.
Its like this unexplainable force ripping all the shame, anger, disappointment, stress, and sadness right out of my heart. One moment I was sitting here, writing about how I wished everything was different, and the next, I'm erupting with Gods love, and being.

Someone I know showed me Cornerstone Church sermons and the one they wanted me to look at was Motivating Through Grace, and everything this man was saying fit perfectly with what I should be doing. Sure, I know that being stressed and angry is just not right, but the way he said it made me think, "wow, am I reflecting God's image?"

I thought about it and still am and the coolest, no, most amazing thing is that every night that I pray for God to remove this stress and anger, the next morning I wake up with a smile and a thought of "How will I reflect my Father today? How will I show Grace and love too everyone?"

In the sermon, the man speaking told a story of someone he knew who was always happy ALL THE TIME, and was wanting to be like him; stress free and unconditionally happy.
I thought of that too, I want to be that person that people see and think, "She definitely has something!"

I had tried really hard throughout the week and the rewards are growing more and more frequent. I have prayed that God will place someone in my life that I can show and explain the love he's placed in my heart, in place of all the negativity. My prayer was answered the next day!!! There is this young girl in my socials class who is confused and questioning the existence of God. The one thing that really hit me though was when she turned to me and said, "You always seem so happy and are always smiling. Why?"
All I did was try to control the urge to yell out thank you, and just reached into my bag and took out my Bible. I told her, "This is why"

The whole class we talked about God and I answered every question she had, even though we had a worksheet to do...I didn't even have chance to be worried if I would speak correctly because every word came out freely. I didn't even recognize myself because it couldn't have been me.

I know this is turning out to be longer than I thought, but how can you express this, I don't even know, you have to feel it to understand.
I know I can't automatically make her a follower of Christ, even though that would be amazing!!!!!, but I have to pray for God to work within her heart, only he can do that. I just have to open up my heart to her and everyone else and show the love of the Holy Spirit working within me. My foster parents have even seen a change in me and are thinking of checking out church, WHAT?!?!?!?! I just about fell over when they told me that!!!!
God has used me for things I couldn't even imagine and I hope he will continue to do so.

Let Christ work within you, let him remove everything in your heart until only love remains.
One of my favorite singers of all time, JJ Heller sings it best:

"Please kill the liar
Kill the thief in me
You know that I am tired of their cruelty
Breathe into my spirit
Breathe into my veins
Until only love remains"

Use this as your prayer, when you only have love left, that is all that remains for you to give <3